Fuck it.

I hate it. Pent up emotions are tempting me to burst or, explode. screw you up,down,inside, out.

Heyy .so I went out for my dads company dinner at one world hotel .it was buffet :D! Great can't believe I ate so much in one day though haha since I went out to eat lunch with sir chin and the comsquad competitors after washing ambulance for area. It was tiring ,but fun at the same time :) not to the part when I get wet all over thx to the guys la-.- Funny thing is , I'm going to be 15 and I haven't had any intention to wear any make up when I go out. Soooo I did an experiment today :D mum actually let me
borrow her eye color palette for me
to test it out hahah. I don't even know how to put it on properly. Why? Bcuz when I get back from the dinner all my traces of eye make up only is GONE hahahahah. I fail badly :) guess I'm not meant to put on makeup huh? It's ok, since it's super troublesome and wasting time somehow . Maybe I wait a few more years hehe. Issh eye lids drooping , zhai jian :)

okay so im lying when i said im happy with our result in state com. im not actually. very sad and disappointed cuz we are exactly in the same level when aivee they all represent in state. all i want is do better than that. haiz :(  cant believe i really let down madam chong . felt like kicking myself . she's the best trainee yet we cant do anything to repay her. grrrr the worst feeling ever = guilty.


oh no. i just realize camp is coming. and i havent even freaking settle anything yet !!!!!!!!! squad name ,cheer and mk.
aisshh messing my hair in frustration * havent even finish my homework yet. no correction, havent even STARTED D; all my projects stuff . why one week pass so fast :(( i barely even sit down properly and enojy it . so busy with stjohn stuff all week only. this is tiring when you have tons of responsibility on your shoulders.





such pretty photography. :D it always made me feel happy when i go through tumblr pictures or posts. ahahah now im turning into a Tumblr freak. i dont even have an account ! wish i had dslr like those lucky girls but nah ,who got the money to buy me there stuffs? my parents dont even took me out shopping for my clothes for random reason unless cny lo. and that's the only time my parents spend clothes money on me :(
and most of my clothes were hand-me-downs from cousins or family  so i dont really get to buy new clothes since mum will go, " you have so much clothes that it's practically spilling out of your closet ,so be grateful ".

i am. just kinda sad that my wardrobe is boring and sad. not in but outdated compare to the girls in my school.  they all wore high-waisted skirt with pretty tops and to-die-for shoes ,cute cute accessories that make me jealous and wishing i could rob their closet's stuff .hahaha i sound so desperate it's a bit sad :)


but it's ok .i have promise myself i would get the chance to update my sad wardrobe once i grown up and have a decent job as living ooooooorrr i win some lottery :D but fat chance is right. bu i really think i have some chance in hitz.fm Who are JJ and Ean talking to contest. i know i can win it ! :D


gtg do chores now bye bye :)